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countdown to loss of all freedom : 6 days

Had quite an eventful conversation with nut yesterday. Talked about quite a lot of stuff, like spawn, about how she can't swim for nuts but goes around plunging from guy to guy, and how the first impressions she gives guys comes in the form of lipstick stains. Heh don't worry la i'm over her already, i think. She's way out of my league. Too bad then.

Talking bout relationships (or for my case, the lack thereof), i'm still pretty ambivalent bout using marriage as a cut off point. I know its a little far-fetched to be blogging bout marriage, heh, but i don't know, i mean, every relationship should be headed that way right? Although most 'teenage' relationships end up in mutual breakups la. It's as if there's a cycle or something. But it's good. Can gain experience. Ok. Thing is, i still do believe in the marriage being used to reaffirm two people's love crap. But you look around, and you see that married people get sick of each other, and the passion fizzles out. Of course, there are exceptions. But isn't it the case for most people? And then we have extra marrital affairs and divorces. So why get married in the first place? To give yourself the illusion that you are doing the right thing by screwing after tying the knot? Which is why, i feel, most people aren't married to the right person. I don't want that. I want the passion at age 50 to be the same as age 15. Ok maybe the way for that to happen is for one to wait and see if that person is indeed the right one. But not everyone can wait. And even if both parties are able to wait, does that necessarily consitute eternal bliss?

Maybe the soulmates idea ain't such a bad one after all. 2 people that know they'd be there for each other no matter what happens, and that there will forever be this strong bond between them, this strong magical bond. Only difference is that no marriage, because marriage may kill that relationship. If not immediately, then in the future.

Of course this soulmate idea may bring about cohabitation. Well, i'm not for it, but not against it as well. I think it's a great idea and all, getting to know one better by living with that person for awhile, but usually it becomes a great big screwing bonanza, thanks(or no thanks) to human nature. It's a lot of responsibility involved, cohabiting, even more than marriage, i feel.

But don't get me wrong. Like i said, i'm not anti-marriage. In fact, i'm pretty sure that i'll head that way, if i find that special someone. I just feel that it ain't the only way and it certainly ain't always the best way. And it shouldn't be the benchmark between liking and loving, keeping one's options open and total commitment, or anything like that, for that matter. Oh well, maybe this view will change over time.

Ok shall stop crapping here. Cheers.

11:21 a.m. - 2003-06-24

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